In Control

Mid-sem break is coming to an end. My 1 week off has been good, been pretty productive and disciplined. Daily revision (I'm still quite amazed of how I managed this), got myself a haircut in the city, baked a cheesecake, gym, party on a Saturday night.

 
The pictures will be up in the next post, hopefully.
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Somewhere deep inside, I feel like there's something missing in me. It feels weird and scary. I've been trying to sort that bit of me out. 

I want to cry. I want to be inert. I want to be in control of my feelings. I want certainties, reassurance and security. I want you to be more sensitive. I want answers.

TERRIFIED- Katharine Mcphee


You, by the light
Is the greatest find
In a world full of wrong
You're the thing that's right

Finally made it through the lonely
To the other side

You set it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only life

And this could be good
It's already better than that
And nothing's worse
Than knowing you're holding back

I could be all that you need
If you let me try

You set it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only

I only said it 'cause I mean it
I only mean 'cause it's true
So don't you doubt what I've been dreaming
'Cause it fills me up and holds me close whenever I'm without you

You set it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time
In my only

xxxxseekixxxx

Random

I'm not dead.

Haven't touched my camera for the longest period of time. So, my apologies for the boring texts here.

Doing my last week of ObGyn here at the Royal Hospital for Women. It's only 4 weeks of duration for us in Year 4. We'll be doing another 8 weeks in Year 5. Next on the list is paediatrics, which will commence next week, for 4 weeks of duration as well.

Gotta start studying...

Gotta stop going out... but I love my weekend outings...

Being random, but

I MISS VANESSA TAN

NIKKI YEAP

MARCUS CHOW

FONG ZHI VEN

SAMANTHA TEE

CHLOE HANG

ADA CHEE

KARMEN LIM
and of course...


SUATIE!!!

Been in good mood lately, though =)

xxxxseekixxxx

Gone, baby gone!!!

Last Saturday night, a bunch of us went to The Rocks, around the Opera House. We just have to do something on Saturday nights, and most of the time, the destination is the city. If Sydney's famous for anything, it would be the vibrant city at night =)

Minhee, Christine & I were on time, so we met at the Opera House and had a nice stroll along the harbour, enjoying the breathtaking view while waiting for Esther and her sister. Minhee's from South Korea, and she's our new friend here. She's a really pleasant and genuine person, xx.

Finally, when the 2 arrived, they decided to have dinner at the ever so famous Pancakes on the Rocks.

Esther, Sarah (her sister), me, Minhee

Minhee, Christine, Esther

I didn't join them for dinner that night, had to leave them halfway for another meeting. SORRY, GIRLS!!! But i'm sure you girls had loads of fun that night =)

Community Health rotation of mine has finally and officially ended!!! I was the happiest soul to walk out of the Community Health Centre after my supervisor completed my evaluation sheet, on which he wrote, 'Self-directed, autonomous, prompt ++++'.

Boredom never felt so good for a really long time now.

Peace out.

xxxxseekixxxx

New/ Pretty/ Handsome--> all I need to get by.

I cooked yesterday.

Pan-fried Greek style chicken, served with sweet potato and eggs.

2 more weeks of Community Health in the Prince of Wales Hospital, another 2 more weeks of lectures about occupational and global health, then that's it for Society and Health posting! CAN'T WAIT!!!!

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Did some shopping in the city on Saturday, bought a dress for no reason (keeps me happy), a pair of jeans from FCUK which was half price!... Went to Circular Quay and The Rocks Night Market after that. It'll be one of my favourite places in Sydney from now on =) 

Hottie alert!

 Seafood Paella!!!

Didn't take pictures of the other stalls 'cause I was too busy looking for food and exploring, hehe.

Peace out.

xxxxseekixxxx

I just need to touch the sand!

Been in low mood for weeks, some days are better than others. It could just be SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder). Can't believe I've been taking the sun in Malaysia for granted all this while!

Anyways, it's been getting better, I think. I feel better, things are sort of falling into place, and resilience is something I need to master, quickly!

On Friday night, Christine and I were just discussing on what to do for Saturday, 'cause I wasn't in the mood to revise or even to arrange my notes. The choices were, the city, Bondi Junction, Coogee beach, Sydney Wildlife Park, Sydney Museum... I really wanted to go to the beach, but it's late autumn, chilly, rainy and gloomy...

Woke up early to hit the gym at 8am (at least I still enjoy working out). Then when I came out from the gym, it was bright and sunny!!!  

COOGEE BEACH!!!!!!

We bought lunch from Subway and sat on the beach for a couple of hours.

Lunch.

I love taking pictures of waves, it takes my mind off anything that's bothering me.

Christine & I.

Christine urged me to take a picture of her cleaning up, so here!

I shall make this my ritual from now on, to visit the beach whenever I feel low. I think the clean and soft sands have magical powers =) It's gonna be hard from now since winter's coming soon, the weather's gonna be worse for the beach.

After Coogee, we went to Bondi Junction. Saw a patisserie along Ebley' Street.

Macaroons.

Ladurée is still the best, without a doubt. I MISS LONDON!!!

Opera cake.

Peace out.

xxxxseekixxxx

Je manque à la maison

Community Health. 3 weeks down!!! 5 more weeks to go!  

I CAN DO THIS, I CAN DO THIS!

I learned some Greek from a patient today, words like doctor, specialist, nurse and hospital. Gotta master more languages =)

After this posting, it'll be winter break for us =) Although it's 8 days only, gotta take what is given with gratitute, aye? No plans for the break yet. Daddy and mummy are not coming to Sydney anymore, change of plan =( 

Bummer.

After the break, it'll be the BGD posting!!! Begining, growth and development (some fancy name for O&G and paediatrics). Justin, O&G refers to the medical specialty which deals with pregnant and non-pregnant women health, while paeds deals with children's health (from infant to age 21).  

Can't wait for something clinical to come my way!!!

Not in the mood to blog about events at the moment, been feeling a lil down.

 "ONGSEEKI!!! Gotta pick yourself up!"

I miss home, Mum & Dad, sis & bro, Van, Marc, Nikki, Sam, Zven, Chloe, my dogs at home (you have no idea how close I am to buying a puppy each time I pass by a pet shop), my car...

Peace out!

xxxxseekixxxx

Oh, Varina.

These babies cost $650.

For their looks.

For their name.

For the comfort.

For they have it in my size, although it's an Italian brand.

Peace out.

xxxxseekixxxx